I felt bad sneaking out on everyone, especially Hollie, but they were all desperate to see Jay and Tom and Max had known him much longer than I had so I couldn’t really say no. Hollie will figure out where we’ve gone, I know she will, I just hope she’ll understand why. We walked down the road a little before Max flagged down a taxi. ‘Thanks for coming with us Soph. Sorry we didn’t let you tell Hollie.’ It’s okay Max, so what did you two bring?’ I said as we got in. ‘I brought my guitar and my headphones. Jay would always say I wore them too much so I figured he might remember them.’ ‘Good idea Tom, Max, how about you?’ ‘Well, we don’t really have any idea what’s missing, so I brought his iPod. I thought maybe that would trigger some memories?’ I smiled at the boys. The most excitable two were so calm about the whole thing. ‘Max I grabbed the flip camera from your room, I hope that’s okay?’ ‘Course it is Soph! Come here, you look knackered.’ He pulled me in and stroked my hair as I lay against him.
When we arrived at the hospital 20 minutes later, I signed in for all of us and led the boys up to Jay’s room. ‘Just be yourselves’ I told them and opened the door. ‘Hey JayJay, how you feeling?’ I asked. ‘Better thanks, leg’s a bit sore though. Hey! Max and Tom! Right?’ Jay looked to me for clarification and I nodded. ‘Y’alright mate?’ Max asked. ‘Yeah, it’s really good to see you both.’ I sat down on the end of Jay’s bed and Max and Tom took a seat on the chairs by the window. ‘Who’s in a band then?’ Jay joked, gesturing to the guitar Tom had placed by his chair. Tom look confused, ‘What? Jay, do you know what your job is?’ ‘…I have a job?’ Max took over when tears began to form in Tom’s eyes. ‘Yeah Jay you do. You’re in a band with me, Tom, Nath and Seev. We’re called The Wanted.’ Jay looked stunned. I was stunned. He remembered the boys but not being part of The Wanted? He broke the silence by saying ‘So what you’re telling me is, I can sing?’ ‘Yeah mate, really well! You can play the drums a bit too! We’ve done two tours, loads of radio and school visits. We’ve even got a few festivals booked up for the summer. Do you er, do you remember any of our songs?’ Jay’s face showed an expression of searching until eventually he shook his head. ‘Hey Tom,’ I said, ‘how about you play All Time Low? I’m sure Jay would love to hear it?’ Tom took his guitar out of his case and the two of them began to sing All Time Low. Jay had his famous cheeky grin on and I felt relaxed enough to join in with Max and Tom. I loved to sing. Jay and I would always sing together and I helped him to write songs sometimes. We’d spend hours singing together and sometimes even sing in the street and parks just for a laugh! After the boys had played a couple songs, Max gave Jay his iPod and then they both excused themselves to go to the bathroom. Tom winked at me as they left and I knew they were letting me have some time alone with Jay. ‘Sing me another song?’ Jay asked. ‘You have a beautiful voice.’ ‘How about we sing one together?’ I suggested. ‘You’ll see how much of an amazing singer you are!’ ‘Okay…I erm, I like Coldplay. But I guess you knew that already right?’ I nodded and went to get Tom’s guitar. He wouldn’t mind me using it just this once. I’d learnt to play guitar when I was little and Parachute by Coldplay was the first song I’d ever learnt to play. As I was playing I looked at Jay and started to sing. He joined in with me at the chorus and he sang the second verse himself. I could feel myself welling up and bit my lip to stop myself. He has such a beautiful voice and I didn’t know if I could ever really live without him. When we’d finished our song, I asked ‘do you remember how you ended up in here? How it happened?’ ‘I remember pain, a lot of pain, and then the rest is just black. Would you tell me?’ I didnt want to have to relive the moment again, but he needed to know. I hoped it would jog his memory. He motioned for me to come and sit up beside him and as I did he held my hand. I squeezed his hand and began. ‘It was Tom’s birthday and we were all going out to a club. He’d gotten us a couple Taxis and when we got there I realised I’d left my phone inside. You said you’d help me to try and find it and Hollie spotted the taxi we’d been in parked across the road. Being a gentleman you offered to get it for me and…’ my voice trailed off. I could feel the tears coming and I refused to cry again infront of Jay. Putting his arm around me he said ‘You’re doing really well Soph, I know it’s not easy.’ This is stupid! I’m meant to be comforting him! Not the other way around. I carried on with Jay still holding me close. ‘You went to get my phone for me and a car came round the corner. It was speeding and didn’t have time to stop. It hit you pretty hard and you ended up against another car. There was so much blood. Most of what happened is kind of blurry, I passed out a couple times.’ ‘Wow,’ he said looking amazed, ‘it sounds like I’m pretty lucky to be here!’ ‘Yeah you are! Jay you shouldn’t even be in here. It’s my fault you were hit by the car, it should have been me.’ Letting go of my hand he looked at me like I’d just slapped him. ‘Sophie are you kidding me? It was a freak accident and it definitely shouldn’t have been you. There’s no way I could be as strong as you if it were the other way around. You’ve been amazing. Now listen to me, I don’t ever want you to say that again okay?’ ‘Okay. I’m sorry. I just can’t bear to think of ever losing you. You’re my life Jay. I need you.’ Tears were falling down my cheeks but I didn’t care anymore. Jay had seen me at my best and he’d seen me at my worst. I didn’t need to be strong all the time and he respected that so I just let them fall. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket a minute later and checked to see who was calling. ‘Jay I need to get this, I’ll be back in a sec.’ As I left the room as Tom and Max came back. I picked up the phone ‘Hollie, hey. Listen before you say anything-’ ‘Sophie, you should have told me you were going to see Jay. You left without a word, and I thought we were all going one at a time? You can’t just take whoever you please, it’s not fair on the rest of us.’ ‘I’m sorry okay! But Tom and Max wanted to see him so much and I couldn’t say no could I? They’ve known him longer than we have, it’s not like I can take ownership of Jay! Yes I should have told you and I’m sorry that I didn’t, but he’s my boyfriend and he doesn’t even remember who the hell I am Hollie. I’m such a mess right now. I went the wrong way about this but at the time I figured it wouldn’t do any harm and that you guys would understand. Listen, I’m gonna stay the night here with Jay, I’ll make sure the boys are home soon. Tell the others I’m sorry?’ I could hear her breathing on the other end of the line and awaited her reply.
I was furious but i completely understood, if this had happened to Nathan i would have done exactly the same thing. ‘I will, i don’t mean to sound so harsh Soph its just anything could have happened and we would have missed it’ ‘As soon as i get home i will tell everyone about it, i promise’ ‘you know your an idiot sometimes?’ She could tell i wasn’t as angry by now and she let out a little laugh. ‘oh shut it. Jay sends his love to everyone over there, i will come home tomorrow morning at 11ish’ ‘okay, byebye’ i hung up. Me and Nathan were still standing in the corridoor and we had both had the phone to our ears so we could both hear. ‘i do get her point’ i said to him. He nodded, ‘babe you should just chill now, shes fine and she needs some alone time with him anyway’ ‘i know i just worry’ he rubbed my back and we walked into the lounge. Everyone had gathered there and we told them what had happened. Nathan and i sat on the edge of the sofa and we both saw siva at the same time. ‘siva what the hell happened to your face?!’ Everyone chuckled as we gazed in awe at siva. ‘Everyone thought it would be funny to draw on my face whilst i went for a nap.’ He glared at Nareesha and she went into fits of laughter, they were so relaxed? Nathan was right. I was so stressed, everyone else had realized everything was fine and we just needed to return back to normal. Jay would be fine again soon and everything would be as it was again. I had a little smile on my face as a realized it wasnt the end of the world. I saw the eye liner on the table next to me and secretly grabbed it.. Kelsey had seen and covered her mouth to stop herself from laughing, Nathan was gazing at the tv and i was pretty sure he wouldnt notice. I quickly drew a little line like a moustouche and he turned around and said ‘what was that for? What was that for?! Get out, get out!’ Everyone was laughing and he took the eyeliner out of my hands and tried to draw on my face, i quickly jumped up ‘cant catch me nath you cant catch me!’ He chased me around the room and we ran into the hall, i came to a halt as i heard the front door open and the next thing i knew i felt a bump and there was a nathan on me (oh god) We looked up at the door and max and tom walked through and looked really scared. They probably thought i was still going to be angry, they casually walked over us like they hadnt seen us and walked into the lounge. They both got to the lounge door and turned around. ‘oh we didnt see you two little love birds there! Did we interrupt?’ ‘this is not what it looks like!’ They both muttered something and laughed and walked through the door. I stared up at Nathan and giggled. He leant down and kissed me on the nose and just stayed there. ‘Babe, we can’t go talk to them if you just lay there’ ‘if i lay here!’ Oh no he wasnt- ‘would you lay with me!’ He wasn’t. ‘and, just forget the world!’ Oh he was. He gave me goosebumps, he climbed off me and pulled me up. We looked at each other and just burst out laughing. ‘You are a nutter Nathan you know that?’ ‘only for you’ god i felt weak at the knees. He winked at me and we walked through into the lounge again. ‘apparently you are really gonna tell us off, but we waited for you and Nathan to become civilised again, you know we dont like interupting’ ‘you are a massive muppet’ i said to Tom. He and Max always made fun of us, but it was all a laugh. ‘on a serious note, do you want us to explain?’ Max said. ‘We know everything and so do they, soph rang us’. ‘Thank god for that’. We all casually chatted like normal, and things were slowly going back into place. One by one people started to drop off to sleep, i felt myself going but wanted to stay up because Michelle was talking about her holiday to america which sounded amazing. I placed my head on Nathans chest on the sofa we were sitting on and felt him stroking my hair, i couldnt stay up any longer, i was going to say night to everyone but i just fell asleep.
I woke up the next morning to voices, everything was still fuzzy and i had a massive headache. ‘i just want a bloody cup of tea!’ I heard Nathan whining. I lifted my head and stared at him. ‘IM FREE!’ He literally ran to the kitchen and seconds later i could hear the kettle boiling. Didn’t even say ‘mornin’, I rolled my eyes and i was the only one in the room, everyone was probably off having showers and having breakfast, i need to stop camping out in the lounge. I walked through the hall way to go upstairs and get ready for a shower when the keys in the door unlocked and sophie walked through. She smirked at me ‘you look like roadkill’. I ran up to her and hugged her- ‘How is he?’